2012 has began: Chapter One.

Since often i talked to myself but I can't seem to write down journal everyday, I thought I can try a monthsary. SO, 2011 is gone.

First, welcome to twenty-twelve where people in the globe thinks it might be the end of the world. 

Actually, my life in INTI has been quite good. The people I meet are very nice to me. I don't know. May be it is a stage that I felt I grew up. :D Range of people I meet here is very different from who I knew in KL. Perhaps they were all from different background, from different places.

 Like my MEGiboys, skeptical enough, people thinks engineering students are nerdy, are boring. I may not be one the studious type, but I still find them really interesting. I'm actually quite impressed with their wide general knowledge. Reminds me a lot of my daddy. Intelligence makes them exceptionally charming. Being the only girl in the class, it's not easy but yet equally not that awful. Bonding takes effort, time and initiative. I enjoy my time around with them although most of the time I don't get what are they talking about. #likeabimbo The connection is there cuz I see them more than I see my roommate. What's really unexpected was that from them, i learnt of what true charity is. I don't know how to tell you, but I am very impressed, although he calls me bitch sometimes. But yeah.

Engineering? LOL It's so not me, not my cup of tea, but I have an aim. I do not care more about process. All I care about is only the product cuz every route leads to success. 

Stingrays is my other happy group. I, too, do not have great talents, imba skills. But I enjoy doing sports and flicking. Every pick up never fails to make me happy. I am a very happy kid every time. :) From every pick up i learnt something new and most importantly, bonding will come naturally when effort is placed cuz i believe in it. I always tell myself how important passion is, and how it can make the world spin in the right direction. 

Chinese New Year was probably the biggest event yet in January. I'm happy cuz kampong annual reunion, this year was up to date, one of the happy ones. Maybe we grew up already too. No matter how much shits we've been put thru we still gonna pull it thru huh? :D I guess the end of 2011 and the beginning of 2012 tested us. Teaches us what courage is, what first steps mean. I'm proud to say that my kids are courageous and yet again, we have a lot to learn still. To care for one another is perhaps the key we should always keep in any relationship. 

As for my family, not to say it went better, but I presume was because I have always been in INTI and when I get back, I'm always not home. There's this tweet that I've seen before that goes, "When we are busy growing up, your parents are growing old". In the eye of the public, it not nice to think negatively, but let us all be realistic. My parents are old, and I wouldn't know how much more time do I have with them. They are my biggest weaknesses and my biggest reason behind whoever I am today. This is a truth, and I won't deny that. 

Rotaract? Hmm. It has always been a great medium for youth like us to learn all new things under the sun available for us. But I guess, it is either under appreciated as it wasn't used to it fullest and it's aim has gone too far for us to recall. And sometimes, I see people over-abused for their position. In the end of the day, you will only earn respect because of your position and not as an individual. It's saddening sometimes because I believe with the power of Rotaract, they can do a lot. But, sighs. I always believe that in a team, what's essential, is every one sharing a same aim.  We, a team, has a lot to learn from one another. A lot. But people can be consumed by a lot of external reasons and themselves, thus a lot of great things and ideas cannot be sent across. Don't do because you have to. Do it, because you want to. Rotaract really have to start learning this simple fact. I put this as a question of passion. 

Perhaps because I am in I-Crew, I was in 30-Hour Famine 2010 with HELP University, I've seen so much. Great leaders, great organization and most importantly is every one has great passion in what they do. I was and still am truly inspired. I probably has set the bar high so I expected more from Rotaract. I will admit, I COMPARE, and one day I'll die comparing. But being competitive is part of my nature. I'm competitive in things I love to do. One funny fact, I should share. I always thought I'm alone, I was over shine by a lot of people around me but to realize I wasn't. Of course, still, I  may not be the apple of your eye, I do not have attractive physical appearance, because what I believe will bring my far is a great attitude. How I define attitude is not on being a nice little girl, but being a girl that has an opinion, that knows what to do and when not to do. Trust me, it takes so much courage in one. 

Talking about aim, I still remember my aims and little dreams with kampong. We said, we should buy a land someday and build our own houses on them and open a lounge and we must have enough parking for all of us. LOL And I said I will buy them any gifts they want then. It's very VERY ambitious, very unrealistic. But I believe in aiming high dreaming big. I'm awake and ready to make it happen. What about you? 

  Just a note from me to who ever is reading. 

Life wasn't meant to be easy whether is it your career, your academic, or your relationship; always remember passion. Passion makes the world spins in the right direction. 

I may be 20 years old right now. Young indeed. Perhaps you suggest, "Hey this kid, only twenty years old, what does she know? The amount of salt I had is more the rice she ate!" 

You know what I think? I think the rice I had wouldn't be lesser in content than the salt you ate all your years added up. Age is a figurative question in authority. Many have been subjective to this and I am more than plain disagree.