2012 has began; Chapter Four

Earlier in the month, attended District Rotaract Assembly at Bangi. Hectic indeed, cuz I'm running against time, as usual. But nonetheless, I enjoy every time I can spend time to talk to people, whether if its a casual chat. I've been missing for a little too long. I tried to make up to them as much as I could. Networking is like an asset to me. I may not blend in with everyone, because I have certain attitude I know many does not simply find it interesting. :) 

Oh oh yeah! Since I went back Bentong for Cheng Beng, we receive good news! Alas, Liew's family is gonna have a big BIG and I mean it, like BIG celebration. Gonna be our first, in our Y-gen getting married. :D I'm gonna get myself prep up to shoot during wedding day itself. Gonna do more homework after the exams. Another shoot will be for Eunice and Emerson. This is really some challenging thing. Something really new for me, and I'm looking forward to it. :) Shall see how much my little hobby can bring memories to. 

Holiday is coming anyway. Looking forward for a state trip somewhere. 

Someone's tempting me to head to Malacca and Johore. Going South to North?

Aww man, talking bout it is tempting enough. 

This is another load of homework, that I'm willing to do. ;p

Oh well. I can only say one thing about me that I just realize in the month. How I am lacking of discipline. I lost the self control that I use to be able to proudly announce that I have, i.e. for emotions and actions. I let loose, and perhaps it's a little too loose, I losing myself and I didn't see it coming. 

How can I make things right, when I have done one thing all so wrong?

All the 30 days, there isn't a day I woke up light hearted. Its just plain heavy. From week one to week four, even until today. My lost my appetite, and that's for sure. Drama in such a small town, in my tiny life with massive impact. I don't know how to react, I don't know what to do. How can we tell if its right wrong? I don't want to question myself anymore cuz my impulsive nature is taking over, and it has probably cross over the line. It's insane. I just want to stay where I am at the moment.

You see, I don't even know what I want to write anyways. Signing out now I guess. Been zoning out often lately. 

Until my appetite is back,

HuiJin Liew