2012 has began: Chapter six

Ahh. This month, is the start of my new semester. Funny cuz I thought I'd be too free. But nahh. not really. :) Been busy partially concentrating on Ultimate and shoots.

Today, we were supposed to send Lea to see her off at the airport as a surprise. LOL just to realise that she checked in before we all got there. We are already halfway there, no we aint turning back. So we end up being there, and had breakfast at Nilai. Oh yea. Feels like home when they are around. I don't have to make conversations, cuz they are too natural to me with them. Even keeping quiet feels comfortable. Buddies don't need conversation to feel comfortable right? :)

Have a safe flight baby Lea. 

So, I had my first tourney experience at Malacca. Okay, I don't know what's with me and Malacca this month. I'm there and about to be there for the third consecutive week already this month. First, it was for Kaelyn's WWF first event in Malacca Hawksbill Heritage at Dataran Pahlawan. Then UTem tourney last week, then Rotaract Club Assembly. Let's begin talking from tourney then backwards. :)

My first tourney experience was awesome in a way. Stingrays beating records and setting history. We got third placing. I did not played a lot, nonetheless, I got in for a few points. I know I couldn't do much, I know everyone is quite tensed up so it's okay. I was afraid to sub in for quite some matches cuz there are critical and important points. :) I promised myself to train harder that I'll feel confident enough to put myself in for the points. Thank god I did not miss the catches that day. I mean, it's okay I didn't score but don't miss it. Cuz the days before I was very frustrated with my own performance. I missed almost every disc that is sent to me. AH! Also, I better start controlling my emotions. :/ Been screaming quite a lot. I'm sorry guys! 

The shoot at Dataran Pahlawan, is good as well tho. I realize I'm covering events quite often. What's interesting to me, is never the formal session. I'm not even that kinda person. What caught my attention is the flashmob, all the tiny little things, all the behind the scene, all the many other people who really is the real VIP instead of whoever that is only there for launching session. The enthusiasm that the players or the performers spread to the public is amazing. You probably will only catch me running around for the perfect frame that I wanted, when I feel enthusiastic enough just as they are. I suppose that makes me a mimic. I mimic the way you behave. Not exactly literally mimicking behavior, but the feelings. Feelings are amazing, aren't' they? They are infectious in a good way. This is one reason why I never find covering event as something boring. 

Always balls down to the same concept; the passion. Why continue doing something with no passion? What is obligation actually? It has to feel right isn't it? Otherwise everything we do is a waste. Somehow it is an irony when I find myself writing that. In a way, maybe I should say I am splitting myself to to different personalties when I deal with problems. Two types of problem. One is by work and another is personal. I guess that is exactly how I became such an impulsively calm person when problems or issues come knocking at my doorsteps. 

hmm, I guess hope brings you up and also tears you down. The ride is not where near comfortable. Another one month and 4 days, it's an important date to me. Honestly I am still thinking what should I do. I'm asking myself, what do I want. True indeed, I already at the state that I closed both my eyes. I want to grasp and feel those feelings that I probably had blocked. Let it break and tear if it has to.

Cheers,

HuiJin Liew