2012 has began: Chapter Nine

The start of my second year fight for my degree began again.This time, it started off really lazy, very much reluctant..then things get really tensed up. I never knew what stress really felt like until I felt it last week. By the end of September, it is the peak week of the semester. All things get all messed up. I'm starting to lose definition of priority, of focus.

Stress, is like someone placed a stone on your heart. Breathing seemed to be the most difficult thing to do.

On the bright side tho, I felt I grew up again. I probably felt confused with which is priority against another, but I began looking at the bigger picture. Perhaps in a way of handling the immense pressure against me, which at the moment I still fail to do so. I do hope I can overcome this as soon as possible, because I have very little time to adapt to this. Time waits for no man indeed. Another realization, (I'd called it), the fact how life can be short the way you perceive them. Family began to stand a stronger position in my heart now. Yes, I do not deny how menial to took my family for. I was a rather selfish child and I consider myself awakened.

Dwelling on keeping myself on my toes for training and education and relationship, one word I have. Is it just me, or is it really difficult to juggle all there at once. I never really had a place I can rant to or to rely on, because I somehow believe I need to push pass my threshold to gain more. No pain, no gain. More than often, I kept things to myself because I don't find the necessity to share problems, where the solution is always just in my hands.

Leaving the study pressure behind, I am left with much happy times here. Despite 50km away from my kids in KL, they still manage to dig me up for my birthday. :D Although I didn't really bother about celebrating birthdays, it is just so sweet of them for the effort and the time. I love them so much. Adding on to that, my boys and I are smooth sailing good relationship. I have a great time talking to them with almost everything under the sun. The one thing I'm always impressed about people with general knowledge. Maybe we are not all so crazy, but to me, they are good enough. We just had a list of BMEGI Survival Kit, which is the things we gotto do before our 4 years ended.

Well. I suppose this is a section everyone would like to learn about me. Relationship. Not gonna deny that there are people going after me, not gonna deny that I have feelings for someone else. I wasn't sure at all with my feelings because all I want now is to put everything I've got to more of a realistic side. More for the future, for the solid foundation there;s other priorities at the moment.

Perhaps only when the right time, and the right person comes by.

Cheers
HuiJin Liew